he is strong and mighty to save...

I guess it's never too late to start blogging here again! And it's such an encouragement to see others blog too :) HMMM, how have I been doing spiritually? Well, I guess now's the time to do a nice self evaluation. UMM, honestly, there are times when I doubt the existence of God, and times when I feel burnt out from school and exhausted to fit God into my schedule. I've even had many days where I'd just watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S. (the BEST SERIES EVERRRR!!!) and all day and then go to sleep right afterwards, not thinking once about God. But, on other days, I will randomly feel compelled to pray and to read the bible and to take more initiative to communicate and express to God about my deepest thoughts. I'm really glad that God is so great though. Yes, my train of thought is really messy and scattered, but ANYWAYS. The moment I started typing this blog, I was listening to "REMAIN- STARFIELD" and the lyrics really moved me. 

"You are God with us
You're victorious
You are strong and mighty to save
For Your word stands true
There is none like you
And when all else fades, You remain"

I think these lyrics are really powerful. And I guess the passion that the singers have as they sing this song really emphasizes how great our God is. God will always be just, right, strong, and mighty to save. No matter where we stand in our faith, in our relationship- even though we may be a galaxy away from God- He will always be there right next to our side to comfort and give us guidance. At times when we feel weak and incapable, God tells us...

"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him" [James 1:5] (YAY FOR BOOK OF JAMES!) I feel like I'm saying stuff that's really obvious, but I guess I just needed to straighten out some thoughts. Blogging really does help people (well...me) to sort out their ideas. Okay, I'm rambling now. HMMM.

Now to some "fresh" material. Well, as a CGL, I honestly feel like I put close to no effort in our cell group. Aside from Bible Studies and stuff, every other night, i feel like I'm not even there for my cell group. I don't a lot of effort to make myself available to my cell group and I don't keep them too accountable. And now i feel terrible. I feel like i've nearly failed as a CGL. I don't think I've done a terrible job leading; I think I've done a terrible job in being accountable for my cell group. HMMM. I guess that's something that needs changing! I gotta get my head in the game! And not even just my cell group. I feel like I haven't been showing much care to people around me. Well, maybe a couple of people here and there, but not everyone. My goal for this year was to be the best person I could be every single day of the year. And from what I've noticed, I've definitely been deviating from that. I've been less "jolly" and less encouraging to others. I don't really know why. It just randomly disappeared and I miss my old me. I'll get that jolliness back! And I really hope I'll be able to keep in touch with close friends! I've been discouraged many times by email chains that randomly die, and people just not wanting to talk about anything =( hmm, ohkay, i'm dead tired right now and i haven't been making much sense, i can tell. I'm brain farting! Alrighty, more later!

Thanks for blogging guys! It's really great to see you all on track with God and making an effort to deepen your relationship with God! KEEP IT UP! And I wanted to also thank you for spurring me to write this blog. In fact, after reading your blogs, i went into a "spiritual high" and "craving for God"....it was weird, but by some magic it happened! So be happy that you've impacted somebody by your blogs!