worship.

worship is amazing :)

driftwood.

right now. i feel like driftwood, physically, emotionally, and even spiritually.

i don't even know where to start. in simple terms, i've had a tough day. i don't know if what i did was right or wrong. Is it really wrong to stand up for others? I thought it was the right thing to do but then i just got totally shut down, and now i'm lost. SO lost.

Spiritually, this whole situation opened my eyes to a lot of things. I don't know what to say. I'm sleepy. 

driftwood i am. i am driftwood. am driftwood i. am i driftwood?

congratulations to everyone!

yay! a lot of people got baptised this sunday! WOOT WOOT! I'm so glad that everything came togehter so nicely for all the baptismal "candidates". God bless them ^^

HMM, on another note, I want to talk about the good friday youth rally! WHAT A SUCCESS! At least, i found it to be a success. It was an amazing night, and i'm so glad that the night fell into place really well! Everything led to something else! And in the end, i was really moved! I was really moved at how many others were moved, but most of all, I was moved by how God made such a sacrifice to die on the cross for us humans. God sent his one and only son for us! HOW COOL IS THAT!?! HOW MUCH LOVE DOES IT TAKE TO SACRIFICE YOUR SON FOR "PEOPLE" WHO ARE WORTH NOTHING IN COMPARISON TO YOU!?! Like, if God is "all-knowing", he must know that Jesus was going to be looked down upon by certain groups of people, and that he'd have to endure all the hardships of being the son of God on Earth. And on sunday, we watched a video of Jesus' life from being captured to being resurrected. It was a really good video! It was good in that it really brought out the emotions of the characters in the video and those of the audience. At least, I felt pretty sad after watching it. I actually started to tear a bit when i saw how Jesus was tortured and how such a loving King and person could endure so much pain (but the tears moistened my dry contact-filled eyes [: ) So there was that. WOW, I'm jumping everywhere.

And now, back to the youth rally! The speaker was really... intense. He was so outgoing and funny, which caught the attention of the audience, but his message, to me, was really unclear. All I got out of the speaker were the 3 things that could make us more "radical Christians"... the rest of his message was full of jokes, but still good. =P So yes, this week, i'm planning to READ THE BIBLE @ SCHOOL, hope GOD WILL GIVE ME OPPORTUNITIES TO REACH OUT TO NON-BELIEVERS, and to MAKE A LIST OF PEOPLE I WANT TO BRING TO CHRIST AT THE BACK OF MY BIBLE. :) YUP! Let's see how that goes! Wish me luck!

he is strong and mighty to save...

I guess it's never too late to start blogging here again! And it's such an encouragement to see others blog too :) HMMM, how have I been doing spiritually? Well, I guess now's the time to do a nice self evaluation. UMM, honestly, there are times when I doubt the existence of God, and times when I feel burnt out from school and exhausted to fit God into my schedule. I've even had many days where I'd just watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S. (the BEST SERIES EVERRRR!!!) and all day and then go to sleep right afterwards, not thinking once about God. But, on other days, I will randomly feel compelled to pray and to read the bible and to take more initiative to communicate and express to God about my deepest thoughts. I'm really glad that God is so great though. Yes, my train of thought is really messy and scattered, but ANYWAYS. The moment I started typing this blog, I was listening to "REMAIN- STARFIELD" and the lyrics really moved me. 

"You are God with us
You're victorious
You are strong and mighty to save
For Your word stands true
There is none like you
And when all else fades, You remain"

I think these lyrics are really powerful. And I guess the passion that the singers have as they sing this song really emphasizes how great our God is. God will always be just, right, strong, and mighty to save. No matter where we stand in our faith, in our relationship- even though we may be a galaxy away from God- He will always be there right next to our side to comfort and give us guidance. At times when we feel weak and incapable, God tells us...

"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him" [James 1:5] (YAY FOR BOOK OF JAMES!) I feel like I'm saying stuff that's really obvious, but I guess I just needed to straighten out some thoughts. Blogging really does help people (well...me) to sort out their ideas. Okay, I'm rambling now. HMMM.

Now to some "fresh" material. Well, as a CGL, I honestly feel like I put close to no effort in our cell group. Aside from Bible Studies and stuff, every other night, i feel like I'm not even there for my cell group. I don't a lot of effort to make myself available to my cell group and I don't keep them too accountable. And now i feel terrible. I feel like i've nearly failed as a CGL. I don't think I've done a terrible job leading; I think I've done a terrible job in being accountable for my cell group. HMMM. I guess that's something that needs changing! I gotta get my head in the game! And not even just my cell group. I feel like I haven't been showing much care to people around me. Well, maybe a couple of people here and there, but not everyone. My goal for this year was to be the best person I could be every single day of the year. And from what I've noticed, I've definitely been deviating from that. I've been less "jolly" and less encouraging to others. I don't really know why. It just randomly disappeared and I miss my old me. I'll get that jolliness back! And I really hope I'll be able to keep in touch with close friends! I've been discouraged many times by email chains that randomly die, and people just not wanting to talk about anything =( hmm, ohkay, i'm dead tired right now and i haven't been making much sense, i can tell. I'm brain farting! Alrighty, more later!

Thanks for blogging guys! It's really great to see you all on track with God and making an effort to deepen your relationship with God! KEEP IT UP! And I wanted to also thank you for spurring me to write this blog. In fact, after reading your blogs, i went into a "spiritual high" and "craving for God"....it was weird, but by some magic it happened! So be happy that you've impacted somebody by your blogs!

where am i?

Now fear the LORD and serve him with all faithfulness... But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve.. But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.

It's time to get serious about faith. What do you really think about God? Some of us have gone to church all our lives, and some of us are still new and trying to figure out this faith thing. But at one point, you have to stop and ask yourself: Where am I? What do I really struggle with? What does faith actually mean to me? We're not here trying to reach churchy or 'godly' answers, but the honest, wholesome truth. Where are you?

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man!
so many things are happening at once!
there's so much to do in so little time!
hmm, i've just been drained in every single way possible lately
thanks to all the supporters i have! you mean a lot to me
i' so glad i have you guys to talk to because it comforts me just SO much
i've had a pretty good week =) so far, just 3 more days of school left! YESSS
anyways, here's a verse i wanted to share!
it's interesting how last yr's theme verse is a part of it :) COOLIOS!

1 Corinthians 13:4-13
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

the very best.

Now I know I messed up bad
You were the best I ever had
I let you down in the worst way
It hurts me every single day
I'm dying to let you know
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
So many things I would take back
You were the best I ever had
I don't blame you for hating me

You and I were living like a love song
I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend
Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had
We fell in love for a reason

here are some lyrics to "Best I Ever Had"...i don't know
I've been listning to this song a lot, and it pretty catchy, and then i thought about the lyrics, and weirdly enough, they related a little "too much" to me. HMMM, I feel like I've really drifted from God a lot over the past I don't evn know how long...actually, probably since the start of school. Once school kicks in, you have all this work you need to do and it's just so frustrating...GRRRR, i hate school. BUT ANYWAYS, I've just been finding it harder and harder to to spend time with God... I LACK so much MOTIVATION... not even funny. I just want to draw back to God. I miss those summer days when I got to spend ubberly loads of time at church and just serving and doing so much for God. It felt really awesome! but man...school's such a spiritual walk killer. NO JK. HMMM, I hope things will turn out for the better later on. I hope to better my relationship with God at the moment. hmph.